Friday, 19 August 2011

Day 6 - Small ideas

I have had the chance to post today! I am satisfied with the smallest of things, for example, an ant crawling along the floor. Obviously, I haven't had much adventure in my life but I'd like to think that it is being observant in this huge world. Once big things are discovered, not many people take the chance to per say, glaze at the stars or watch the clouds float by. Well, not everyone thinks this as our minds work differently, and they have probably seen a lot more of the world then I have; It's nice to think this way with my simple mind when experiences shall come later in life. Hopefully...

I don't really have much time to blog today, however, I would be pleased to expand on this simpleton idea. I guess thinking everything is insignificant just shows that it is more important as it adds up to your life. This is not a lecture or speech that I force upon you but really a small thought, apart of a larger (hopefully) mind that hopes to inspire people, even one person. I bid you goodbye for now!

Mae

Thursday, 18 August 2011

Day 5 - Dream like nightmare?

Key: Italics - My thoughts now! (Extremely important in the future!)
        Bold - The thoughts in my dream (Not so important in the future)

I just remembered that I had an insane dream today, well technically yesterday since it's quite late, anyways, I will tell you about it. I had recently transferred schools, this would mean that it was a new country, new people and new rules. Sure, I assume this must have been America as everyone kept on talking about a mall opening, (sorry if there is malls in other countries) I was utterly confused. Then I realised that I was correct... It was included in the name of the school, I was in California. What an idiot to not realise that! Despite being in America, I couldn't help but feel like the school was influenced by the Japanese, the layout of the classrooms, dress code and culture. Everything was beautiful.

The lessons weren't the same either. I had to do flower arrangements, play chess and use ink for all paintings. Sorry for the stereotypical dream, even though chess isn't really subdued to Japan, regardless, of this, I have used ink in my art. It was peaceful up until a point where students started to stare aimlessly at me, like I didn't belong. I know I didn't but I wanted to stay so I tried to blend into the crowd: straighten my hair, wear dull colours, even eat in isolated places, yet all this seemed useless. No one noticed my attempts to become another face in the crowd, I was still the intruder in this school even when there was a new student yet to arrive.

After that new boy entered, the students suddenly took an interest in him. Although it was relieving to get the attention away from me, there was a thought back in my mind which envied him. Was it only me that this happened to? I thought. The only thought which was permanently engraved in my mind ever since his first day....

Then I woke up! Sorry for the sad dream, lack of descriptions, bad sentence structures and lack of knowledge to use interesting words! I guess this is pretty much me, I understand it yet no one else does but I hope that my dream wasn't too hard to understand! The pessimistic attitude surfaces yet again...

I need to tell you that I can't update tomorrow since I have to go to my grandma's house, hehe. Yes, I am not ditching the blog now and I will make up for the unwritten blog that doesn't get done! If I manage to post a blog then great! If not, the same amount of blogs will be posted. Bye for now!

Mae


Wednesday, 17 August 2011

Day 4 - Cute children!

A child of the age of 6 just told me that I was adorable. That is cute, hearing that from a child, I think that's the best compliment that I have ever received. It may be odd but I appreciate a child's opinion especially when they are super cute themselves, heh.

Although I get highly irritated when something goes wrong, I can't help but admire children. I probably won't work with them but their presence brings me joy, aw.  This is probably just me as I am being extremely nostalgic: remembering not remembering, laughing unconsciously and being able to play all the time. The reflection of childhood is pretty much nostalgic to many people, maybe even everyone so the attitude towards children may be lighter, fluffy and in awe? This isn't entirely the case as there has been cases of child abuse, abandoned children and infant mortality so their lives are sometimes short lived.

The main message of this is observing all the people around you, especially children as they are one, the future and two, guaranteed to make you smile, even if this doesn't apply to every child. V_V My pretentious face, as you would like to know.

Anyways, bye for now!

Mae

Tuesday, 16 August 2011

Day 3 - Movies, manga and mild obsession with Naruto?

Well, what do I have to say? Movies are an inspiration. I may be the only one but the movies I watch tend to take me to another place and always gives me the will to never give up, well, just yet... Besides, movies are meant to give you some sort of influence, isn't it? Even if it's supposed to make you pass out, cry in joy or provoke all types of thoughts, there is a reason to why it is made. Ah, here I am, going off on one but movies are truly amazing, this may seem like I have no life as movies are important in my life but they are one of those things that everyone can feel something towards, whether this be good or bad.

Obviously, movies aren't the only things that amazes me... MANGA AND ANIME! That's pretty much one of the things that never lets me down, I always have to smile by the mention of this although it's not entirely everyone's cup of tea ( I like green and fruit tea ^_^) so it's understandable that it's not considered a huge development in the world. Yet, it's one of those things that has been in my childhood, I'm sure everyone remembers Pokemon. That's still going on today so many generations will grow up with this! Even though I don't watch too much of it now, it was there in my memories and nothing is going to erase that (apart from possible memory loss? No time for jokes I guess...).

However, Naruto has got to be one of the best. Both manga and anime are interesting and those sad scenes with Naruto himself make me teary, well, no tears fall but they are formed, heh. This has got to be the one thing that motivates me to never give up, shows that things may not be fair but it's worth it to keep on going. *sigh* Here I am preaching the wonders of Naruto so it seems like I am the weird type to be influenced by these things... but, I am and I can't deny that it makes me overzealous! Although, Naruto isn't considered the best to everyone, (I know this since I've seen lots of different types of animes and read awesome manga) it's the best to me. Aha, now that screamed corny but it's true, it makes me emotional, not tears that drown the world (as you would know) but small smiles at my wonderful screen.

Anyways, this has been different compared to my last two posts as it was about me obsesses about Naruto but I had to have a blog about this! It wouldn't be the same without it as chapter 551 is coming out tomorrow, wooh! Sorry for any inconvenience to you if you expected deep things, maybe tomorrow? Bye for now.

Mae

Monday, 15 August 2011

Day 2 - Disjointed mind

Ah, I have come back again and I have pretty much nothing to report. My day consisted of working out for half an hour, washing my thinning hair (damn) and reading some fiction *cough* fanfiction... Just the normal routine, apart from the fact that I didn't have to cook today.

Fasting has been tough today. After the workout, I would grab a 2 litre bottle of water but that isn't going to happen for another 15 days which is quite sad since that feeling after working out is thirst. Besides from that, I am seriously unfit this year which was rather obvious as I have time to browse the Internet for interesting things.

Thought of the day - All babies are open, right? Well, that thought is pretty much ambiguous because no one really knows what the baby thinks but they are able to focus on their needs due to their reactions and responses such as: laughter, cries and silence. Silence can tell a lot about a person which is extremely powerful, I'd like to believe that this is far more interesting than the noise that is created as it can be peaceful or eerie. It seems to be able to destroy the barrier of opposites as it appeals to both ends of the spectrum.

Ah, yet again, I went off on one and can't sustain my thoughts from one subject to another as I get passionate about one thing and link it to another. *sigh* When will I learn? However, I'm only young once so I might as well drain all the thoughts I have now and compare them to say, a year's time? That would be interesting to see whether or not I am still the same impetuous person with scattered thoughts.

That's it from me, bye for now!

Mae

Sunday, 14 August 2011

Day 1 - "Newbie" in town

The actually intention of this blogging was just to keep my mind of things, be able to express myself through words as they are always powerful as well as keep track of my own thoughts. There are absolutely no expectations to whether or not someone will stubble upon this blog in particular and be in awe by my thoughts; However, that would be quite nice.

Cutting to the chase, day 1 - "Newbie" in town. My life hasn't been the most interesting to say the most, but yes, it is the summer holidays. Obviously, this would hint that I am a student which is precisely true although not an old one. I'd like to say mid-teens, a half way line which isn't going to last very long. *sigh*

Despite this, truthfully, I must admit that aren't progressing too well. To say the least, I haven't done anything productive that I think would help me later on and this is extremely terrible. Yes, writing about it is just as useless as making something happen but the one thing everyone struggles with is finding that starting point. Sure, I could blame it on not being confident enough to help the community, possibly land a job or maybe even fasting - that's no excuse! Personally, it really is a shy thing but I should really start somewhere and this is what I need to do in the future, and now - the present. I just wanted to state that my feelings towards how my summer has been going so far in terms of feelings.

On the other hand, the things I have done were quite fun: going to Brighton, writing a Government Grant letter (for my trip to South Africa, the organisation - Operation Wallecea) and just hanging out with the family especially my baby sister, hehe. Wait, I have forgotten, my art homework has become less of a head ache. *phew*

I guess this is a lot of background information to my thoughts, not any specific details of me as an individual e.g. appearance, hobbies or family but hey, it's just a matter of time. Besides, I've never really thought much about appearance and this makes me wonder if blind people are ultimately some of the most genuine people around. I mean, it's taking their lack of sight in a good way, they don't judge entirely on the look of someone so they have to base their opinions on the way someone is on the inside, therefore having a reliable judgement. Unfortunately, I haven't actually met a blind person but I hope to in order to have an insight on their view on life and people.

Well, this is quite a big start to the blogs so I hope to continue this for a long time as I tend to lose interest rather quick... ^^; Also, my writing tends to go off the point so I apologise if this confuses you in any way! Bye!

Mae